Staying positive in a negative world.

Well, after being in college for almost three weeks, I have to say I’m not really fond of it all. If I could choose, I would go back to high school in a heartbeat. Maybe it’s just that I haven’t got all the way adjusted to “college life” yet? Or maybe it’s just that I still need to accept the fact that I’m not going to FWBBC this year, and stop wishing thats where I was going to school? I really wish that’s where I was going to college this year. Oh wait, there I go wishing again. 

Whatever it is, I know I just need to accept it and move on. I think I’m having a hard time trusting God knows what’s best for my life. I still wish (there I go again) I was at FWBCC. But, thats not what God wanted for my life or I’d probably be going to school there. I know God is in control and knows what is best for my life, but it’s just so hard. So hard. Our pastor at Church has even told me he feels like this is where God wants me. Why is it so hard for me to accept it and move on?

It’s hard to stay positive. It’s hard to be happy where I’m at. It’s hard to trust God knows what he’s doing. Everything is just so hard.

 I always hear people say “Don’t be so negative. Stay positive.” I guess that is what I need to do. This whole post has been about the negative side of life. More like complaints, really. This is my negative world.

I guess my positive world would look something like this: “At least I’m going to college. Some people can not even do that.” “Just because I’m not going to FWBCC this year, dose not mean I won’t be going there three years from now. Things can change.” “At least I’m not having to evacuate from my home because a hurricane might hit it.” Looking at the bright side of things, not focusing on the negative. This is my positive world.

My mission for the rest of this semester is to try really hard to stop focusing on what I wanted, and to start focusing on what GOD wants. To stop wishing, and start accepting. To start living in a positive world instead of a negative world. As hard as it may be, I think I can do it. I know it will be hard, but not everything is easy. I would ask that you please pray for me, and keep me accountable. It will be easy to slip back into the “negative state of mind” but with someone there keeping me accountable, and reminding me to stay positive it will be easier to stay positive. 

It’s not about me anyways.